What to do... What to do....

So here's the dilema, I love my kids but kinda want to get back out into the work force. My kids are 4 (soon to be 5), 3.5, 3.5, and 2. One is in preschool right now, the other two are gearing up for it next school year and then it will just be the boy and I until the year after that pre-school for him and then school for him, in what thats 2 school years, 3 year years away. But here's the thing, there is a position well suited to my strengths in business and its a very limited chance to get it, I want it but at what expense. I want my kids to go to a certain pre-school, but I also wouldnt mind working, especially with the current economy. Of course, this would all depend on if the pay was right and I could find a day care with in a certain budget. But if we do day care then it would be no pre-school where I want them to go. UGH. I'm so confused. I'm going to call tomorrow and find out about the job, maybe right there this will all end, but then again it could be that I'm even more tempted to leave the home. Why couldnt this have waited one more year, things would have worked out much better then.

It's F-ing cold out there...

It was so cold on Sunday, I almost got frost bit running from my house to the van, and when I say that isn't very far, I'm not kidding on the cold. I had to run to my parents (a whole 5 miles) to finish our taxes and of course the van is on E, argh, so I had to do that on the way too. When I got to my parents place I was a bit worried about my calves (there was just about a 3 inch section below the knee exposed)(I know, I'm stupid) that was really tingling, not good. But at least they didn't stop until I was inside instead of outside where it would have been frost bite then. Some days I seriously need to think about things a little better.

I'm still working on the shawl, but not as much as I should. I'm going to make a point of working on it this afternoon, I really need to get it done so I can do other stuff, like finish the mittens for the girls and stuff for T and maybe even something for me, as well as the socks for my m-i-l and the scarf for Gran and oh yeah all the stuff I promised for my mom, argh, argh, arggggggghhhhhh. I need to knit faster and maybe an extra pair of hands, and the need for less sleep and more hours in a day, oye friggin vay.

FO :: Calorimetry and one Crazy day...

Well I finished my Calorimetry other than sewing on a button, this evening during Heroes. It fits a little better than the last one, now to find just the right button.

I'm posting uber late tonight because I got sucked into tv land, damn time sucking vortex. I really need to learn to just turn it off earlier. I would have knit more after I finished the Calorimetry but my hands were hurting last night and tonight when I knit, I think it was the yarn.

The children were insane again this evening, Ra was being extra naughty all day today. She was pushing every button she could, figuratively and literally. I love my children but they can some days really know how to push, fortunately when they get like that I don't overreact I tend to more often get calm and just send them to the coroner and than call my hubby and tell him they are driving me nutty. Or I go and knit and calm down before I have a talk with her. I know she's only 2 and some change so I try not to be unreasonable, but no means no and she has enough chances to stop that she should at least get the whole stop doing it thing. I count and that usually works but not today with her, she is a stubborn one just like her daddy and mommy. I'm just happy I can look back and laugh now. I sure do love those goofy kids.

Se is learning to push now too, he loves to pull all the pans off their shelf when I'm in the kitchen cooking, oye.

Well tomorrow I plan to work on my socks and hopefully find the large amount of missing yarn that is all for one project, argh.

Night all.

Entertainment Abounds... or Not

So today wasn't very entertaining, the kid were crazy this morning, T was gone out hunting/scouting for muzzle loader season, and when he got home I finally got to leave. I of course left way later than I intended, and I'm super frustrated because I'm missing some very important yarn and I'm fairly certain I've searched all the places it could be and it isn't. The yarn is for my mom's hat, scarf, fingerless mitt set and I wanted to swatch for the mitts today if I found the time. The yarn is also discontinued Memories colorway Red Hat, so I'm getting uber frustrated.

After the yarn search, I went over to my friends place to help her pack some of her stuff, she is moving Friday into her new home and is need of all the help she can get. I feel bad I can't help more, but this is the time of year in our area where many men and some women are hunting and not available. For our family, it can mean the difference between eating and having enough or not having enough and making sure at least the kids have what they need. Last summer we had a rough spot where if we hadn't had the venison in the freezer it would have been even tighter and tougher to live. It can be a hard concept for those not from the area to get, it's definately different than other places I've been. And my friend is right, it would be nice to have something that we could do that meant we were gone for two whole weekends plus and it all be in our eyes fun. I don't consider Ren Faire to be part of this because I'm working and I'm working hard. But like fiber/knitting camp would be really cool to do sometime, or maybe a trip to Rhinebeck or the like.

I forgot to tell you last night that my Ravelry shirt arrived. I showed it to my husband but he was like "I don't get it", I showed it to my friend who's a knitter and she laughed. So I guess this isn't a shirt for the slow or unknowing, but I think I'm okay with that. I'll try to get a picture for the blog tomorrow when hubby gets home.

Well off to bed, busy day tomorrow, lots of dishes to clean from the weekend and some laundry to finish, and a ton of sorting to do also. And don't forget all that holiday knitting. Oye.

It's Snowing.....

Well it isn't staying but we do have the first flurries of the year. I tried to take pictures but the snow doesn't want to be photographed. So I took this test instead :D...





No knitting questions but what do ya do. I got this from someone else's blog but I can't remember who's because I was just doing the click links thing.

I did get out yesterday after about one o'clock, but T kept calling me so I felt rushed for being out and enjoying myself. I went to the yarn shop Knit'n from the heart in Woodbury and helped a lady figure out how to do a k2, p2 rib, that was cool. Then I grabbed dinner and headed over to Rachel's to help her pick up boxes and go have a visit at Starbucks and knit. It was great to hang out with my friend again, I missed the time we used to hang out together. I'm really excited for her that she is going to be a homeowner soon and have such a great new place to live.

At the yarn shop I purchased some yarn and a magazine to knit T a hat that was on the cover. The yarn is Cascade yarns Lana Grande in a great burnt orange and the magazine is Knit Simple Fall 2007, it's a really cool pattern. Only problem is that his head is bigger than the pattern can handle so I had to figure out how to up it and then when he tried it on this morning it was a bit to shallow so I need to pull back my decreases and fix that, I may just frog the whole thing and start again my added on stitches suck, but I'm kind of mad at the hubby right now so I may say I don't care. Also just a note, 2 hour pattern took 4 without tassels and braids and crochet, and I need to find a crochet hook somewhere size K.

Well the natives are restless so I'm going to go get breakfast started and hope they chill.

Bad Monkey, no cookie :(

Sorry I've been such a bad blogger this month, I've been in kind of a rut. I don't really want to do anything but runaway. I think this whole being a parent, thankless job, thing is starting to really get to me and now the whole hunting season is about to start. I don't begrudge hubby being gone, we need the meat he hunts for, but I don't like being home alone and although he only mostly works and comes home, he still leaves these walls everyday for a period of time. I tend to completely whole up when he isn't home, I mean I have four friggin kids where am I to go by myself and either not worry about losing a child or being completely overwhelmed because god-forbid they listen to their mother. And to add insult to injury, I feel like a freak by all the people staring at me, not helping, just staring like I'm about to pop another one out any second. "man that looks like a lot of work" really, you think just maybe, hmm, just a little bit.

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I'm stopping myself now, the vent is more than enough and tomorrow morning I may just delete most of it but I need to get some of it off my chest. And before any of you mention it I do realize T was left at home for 7 weekends in a row with the kids, but I will have every day of the week and every weekend until the middle/end of December with them. So a few weekends is really not that big of a deal.

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Stopping again, definately have my period, (first day this cycle) and it's all coming out with my sleep deprivation, oye. Again Sorry about this and next post will hopefully have some knitting content, I'm almost done with Se's socks, so cute.